academicsilence:
msamberhazard:
So tell me why we’re focusing on gay suicide?
The statistics here are incorrect. Transgender people as a whole, and gay and lesbian teenagers, have nearly the same rate of suicide risk - 41% to 40.3%. Please don’t think one group is more important than another…both groups needs help and support.
(Hey, Check Dat Privilege, still want to argue that people understood you “didn’t mean” that trans people were more important that gay and lesbian youth?)
I think that number you’ve posted is incorrect. I’m reading the data in the link you provided and it ranges WILDLY, with the number you’ve provided being the absolute highest percentage found in any study.
Regardless, the fact is that there is no effort to talk about trans* suicide while gay suicide has celebrity endorsed ad campaigns.
On top of that, trans* womyn (especially TWOC) are disproportionately the targets of violent hate crimes. Yet nobody is doing a thing to help us.
There is no denying that trans* people, especially trans* womyn (especially TWOC), suffer more deaths at the hands of cissupremacy than the gay community suffers at the hands of homophobia.
Throw in the many facts about how we have so much less legal protection than gay people and the picture becomes quite clear. Cis people have privilege over trans* people REGARDLESS OF ORIENTATION.
Am I saying that makes us more important? No. However, I AM saying that we are a group who is suffering more and getting WAY, WAY less support and attention.
So tell me why we’re focusing on gay suicide?
Great… I’m awake again… *sigh*
I’ve realized there’s a battle going on inside me constantly…
…between the part of myself that wants to see me grow, learn, create, and achieve greatness and the part of myself that wants to make me atrophy, disintegrate, destroy myself, and die miserable and alone.
I really need to stop hating and hurting myself…
…and that’s not going to happen unless I promise to take a stand right here for my own happiness and success and do everything I can to kill that dark spot inside me that wants to take me down.
I promise from now on that I will work towards greatness… that when these battles occur I will not let myself lose to my own self-loathing… that I will never let it affect myself or those who love me EVER AGAIN!
I really really really wish I could close my eyes and when I open them again you’d all be gone…
[TW: SUICIDE, DEPRESSION]
I wonder how many suicide notes I’ve written or planned out in my head during my short lifetime…
[TW: SUICIDE, TRANSMISOGYNY]
melancholynecrokiss replied to your post: I think I need to leave CCA.
Are you okay?
No… I am very much not okay. There is no such thing as a safe space, I have nowhere to escape to where I won’t be misgendered or treated like shit once people realize I’m trans… and people who don’t yet know fucking sexually harass me CONSTANTLY! I am tired of being terrified of everyone; their staring eyes… but I’m also so tired of running… I see no light at the end of the tunnel or possibility for freedom from this constant assault.
I really, really, want to give up. I just can’t imagine tolerating decades and decades of this oppressive, soul crushing bullshit… Even though there are people I love and I don’t want to hurt them, I feel like not killing myself is an act of masochism.
atannerfiercely:
msamberhazard:
I am one of the most hated people on the planet because I refuse to live a lie and submit to oppression. My life is forfeit and anyone’s to take without consequence. Defending myself physically is a crime and when I try to defend myself with words people act as though I have nothing to be upset…
We have to stick together. The rest of the world may spit on us, may knock us down, kick us around on a daily basis, but we still have each other. Know that you can talk to me about the shit you go through. I get depression and I get transness. I also value you as a friend and a human.
You’re a really good friend.
<3
